Team Innovation

I've been so busy with "Team Innovation" these days. It is like my LIFE now.

The drawback: I'm like 24-7 in front of my com. I haven't really told my parents about it and they think I'm addicted to some game. I kinda give up explainin to them. Everytime I switch on the laptop, they thinkn its some game and I get a scolding for it.

Man... When will they understand? Ever since the last post, I hardly even touched a game. I've been working every night till 5am just for a living. Yes on the computer. To those who think that sitting down and earning money with the computer is easy, it isn't. It is mentally challenging and draining.

For those who don't know what "Team Innovation" is, it is my website designing company. Or rather, it is my team name. Currently I'm still coming out with my company's website so am still very busy. If you guys ever need any website design or a design for your blogs, blogshops, you can look for me. I'll give you a DISCOUNT :)

Currently we are having a promotional package, therefore my team is kinda overloaded. I'm currently looking for another team member. Don't worry, you will be paid. As long as you have a passion for web-designing, is willing to go out of the box, and most importantly be able to work as a team, you can send your resume to me for an interview. Of course, you need to have reasonable web-designing skills.

I QUIT DOTA CHIONGING!

Dear DOTA friends,

This is sad cos I'm getting really good at the game.

But yeah, I'm gonna quit DOTA CHIONGING!

I'm sorry guys. It was really fun playing with you guys, we make a great team. However, I cannot carry on with the game. I just have too many things in my life to concentrate on. I just got a wake up call and if I don't snap out of this now, I never will.

To all my DOTA friends, it was great playing with you guys. Really... We really make an awesome team. But I just have too many personal committments to keep up with. Each game is probably like 45 minutes or so. I can't let 45 minutes of my life be taken up with virtual pride and glory.

Sorry guys that's all I can say. I can only play on weekends and probably a game or two and that's it. And I'm probably not gonna play hardcore in a very very long time to come, perhaps never.

Sign Out
cofsetuna

JAI HO!

Not really in a very hyped mood this holidays. I have turned from a sports enthusiast to a hardcore DOTA gamer. I'm kinda feeling the side effects as it starts to consume my life. Nonetheless, I've decided to stop this nonsense.

I'm gonna quit playing DOTA for 5 days as of tommorow and dwelve in my workout and my work. After all, I prefer being a workaholic than a procrastinator.

I have to thank God for making me realize that there are more important things in the world for me to care about. I will never forget about the ones I love and will work towards a better future for them.

Like what Setsuna said: "I will cut through to the future."

And of course, what's a statement without a song?

JAI HO! - VICTORY!

A Better World

Just finished the final episode of Gundam 00.

For people who think that people who watch Gundam are nerds, think again. This season is really full of meaning and relates to the current world situation that we are facing.

The current world that we are living in is full of turmoil, suffering and challenges. There is hate, terrorism and poverty all around. There are also countries that exist with corruption and they do not work for the peace and happiness of the people.

We are indeed very lucky to live in Singapore. Our government is one of the best in the world and we have one of the highest standards of living around the world. We face virtually no suffering, unlike those in Africa with more than 1 million of children facing starvation. We are able to crave for things like chocolate ice cream, an Iphone or the newest car in town. Other kids around can only hope for enough food to feel their empty tummies.

Can we really live this life knowing that there are others suffering out there?

Why do most people turn a blind eye on the poor and helpless?

Why do people watch the Discovery Channel and sigh at how helpless the poor and malnourished can be and yet forget their existence when they turn off the TV?

Perhaps it is because we cannot really do anything about it.

Or can we?

In my opinion, I believe we can.

As long as we stand together and work towards a better world, we can do something about it.

Like what Saji Crossroad said: "If we really desire world peace, then we have to work for it."

I hope more people will stand up for a better world.

Till then... Perhaps, our children would have a better place to live in.

Unworthy

What is this void inside of me?

It's growing bigger and it's becoming more difficult to ignore?

Why can't I look at everyone straight in the eye just like how I used to?

Why do I feel like I'm not being responsible for my own life?

Why does this feeling of helplessness overtake me?

Why am I drifting myself further from others?

Why do I lose respect from all? Why do I not respect any?

Why am I running away from the things I love?

Why do I wait, sit and wait all day?

Why do all these negative notions get into my head so easily?

Am I becoming weak?

Perhaps instead of becoming a better person, I became a worse person.

Even my closest one said I can't be trusted. She hates me now.

Perhaps I hate myself too.

I have got serious issues now.

I feel it. The way my mind move, the speed, I'm not like them.

But this edge does not seem to give me any joy, or rather, I'm not using it.

I'm just sitting at the doorway of innovation. My mind changes, but my body withers, my soul is tearing itself apart.

Who can save me? I know.

The person is not her, not him.

But me.

I will Innovate.

I will stand, I will move towards the future.

I will lead.

I will change.

Perhaps then one day, I may truely call myself worthy of living.