Firstly, I would like to applaud the Singapore government on doing such a good job on taking care of our country. All around the world, I see countries going into trouble but Singapore is still going strong and growing.
However, it has come into my notice that though we have a good government, our laws and policies of media are still of doubt. Look at our newspapers. I can see so many loopholes and flaws in them that nobody bothers to point out.
I think the best newspaper in Singapore would have to be The Straits Times and Lianhe Zaobao. Those two newspapers are very rich in information and they abide by international standards. I never fail to find information in there relevant to my learning in school and they are pretty useful for projects as well.
However, I think poorly of The New Paper and Lianhe Wanbao. Particularly I personally dislike the sections of CLICK! and STOMP! the most in the newspapers.
Those two sections started off with "good intentions" for Singaporeans to display interesting pictures and videos. However, now it has turned so ugly that I don't even want to look at it. When I flip to the sections of CLICK! or STOMP!, i never fail to see snapshots of people who don't even know their pictures were secretly taken by someone.
Yes, some of the pictures are interesting and some really provoke alot of thought. Pictures of teens in school uniform holding hands, pictures of people sleeping on each other's laps in public transport and pictures of teen behaving intimately never fail to make it into the local tabloids. But have you ever thought that by taking other's pictures, you are actually invading into their privacy?
I tell you some Singaporeans can be such pussys. A good example would be my friend's aunty. She would watch korean dramas everyday and cry over them.
"Oh so romantic!"
"Oh my they are gonna kiss!"
"Oh brother and sister love relationship. Why don't they just let them be?"
It's ok to see two korean stars acting as teenagers kissing by the riverside. But if my friend's aunty would to see our local teens kissing by the riverside, she would probably go: "Teens these days! So intimate in public! Phuey! So young hold hands liao... Mother, father never teach!"
Hello?! You were going high over the same situation on TV just now.
Let it be. Give people space and privacy. Be it if they are commiting acts that are in the doubt of your "societal values". Give us some space.
Cos if you don't. People are gonna start going crazy. Everyone has a camera phone these days. Taking a picture is so darn easy. Soon, there will be a flood of pictures and who knows you will be the next victim of having your picture taken without your permission.
Some people already don't know their limits. One of my friends was working in one of the Community Clubs and one day this guy called in.
My friend: "Good afternoon sir. How may I assist you?"
Man (with feminine voice): "I want to lodge complain! I observe my neighbour very long liao. She never cover her bamboo pole holders with caps. Wait got Aedes mosquito breed. Faster come her house now!"
My friend: "Sorry sir. We do not entertain such complains. You should try calling the town council."
Man (agitated still with feminine voice, almost screeching already): "I tell you I really watching her now! I watch her for 2 hours already."
My friend: "I'm sorry sir I can't help you in anyway. You should contact the Town council for further assistance."
Seriously, Singaporeans are just too quick to jump at stuff. We just call, take pictures without taking any action before that like informing our neighbours about putting caps on bamboo pole holders. Spying on other people is also invasion of privacy.
Spread the word, stop the act. Stop invading into other's privacy!
A society which cares
Is not a world without privacy
Invade into my private life
And I make sure you never get out of it
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
Shopping Lists and God's SMSes
Business Finance ICA today was ok. It was not that difficult but not that easy as well. As expected I flunked the first question but luckily it’s only five marks. Hopefully this test would be better than ICT.
Went out with Jovian and Christy today to Causeway Point. Christy went to meet some guy whom she met online. At first she told us that he was a player. But after having dinner with her, me and Jov conclude that he cannot make it. Lol.
My shopping list increased tremendously today! Damn!
Dom’s Wish List
1. Ipod Nano - $100
2. LG Viewty - $338
3. New clothes – Approx $100
4. Basketball Shoes - $100 - $140
5. Basketball - $50
6. Converse Sneakers - $59.90 - $89.90
7. New bank Account - $500
Looks like I’ll be working during the holidays then.
Anyway at Causeway Point, we ate at Mcdonald’s while Christy and her friend ate at Pastamania. When I was at macs, God owned me. It was as if he SMSed me or something.
I was about to put the golden nugget in my mouth when I heard the song playing in the background.
It was Aerosmith’s “Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing”.
It was at this very place, when this very song was playing. I still remember as if it was yesterday.
I was really upset then that she said we could only remain as friends. It was when I was in Innova, a few days before the inter-house basketball tournament. I was practicing alone at the court when she came along.
It was Pam, the girl I adored the most my entire life.
I was a bit taken aback. Here I was practicing for the competition and she just came. She was a beginner in basketball so I offered to teach her how to play the game. I didn’t have any weird ideas in my head except for feeling like I’m the luckiest guy on Earth. I’m playing my favourite game with the girl I love.
I have never fell in deeply in love with anyone else. Everything she did was graceful. I mean if it was my friend and the ball didn’t go in, I would be like “Hmm…” But for her, it’s like the world lighted up for her. Every action every move would be coupled with the song: “There she goes, there she goes again, racing through my head…” She is beautiful :)
Good moments fly fast and soon it was late. I thought of home but she said we should have dinner instead. A 3 hour basketball training and dinner together? I was one lucky guy! We had dinner in the Mac’s at the very table that me and Jov sat at.
I was enjoying my time with her when she suddenly jumped and said that she lost her wallet. She just ran out of Macs without saying anything. I was shocked and didn’t know what to do. That was when that song “Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing” was playing.
A voice in my head said : “Go Dom! Run after her!”
I ran. I remembered how it was. It was the fastest I ever ran. All the way up the escalator, out of the shopping centre, up the overhead bridge and back to the basketball court. She was almost on the verge of tears. She couldn’t find her wallet. It must have been very important to her.
We searched around for quite a while but to no avail. We suddenly thought of one of her friends who were playing there just now. She could have found her wallet and brought it home. She didn’t have a mobile phone then and luckily I brought mine. I called her friend up and luckily her friend had it!
I was like “YEAH! WE FOUND IT! I knew we…”
She hugged me.
I was so shocked. Thinking about it now makes me laugh. I was like a blockhead. The girl of my dreams was hugging me but all I did was to have my hands to my side like I was in “sedia” position.
I didn’t want this moment to end. Everything in the world disappeared when her skin touched mine and everything made sense. For the first time, I felt her warmth, I smelt her hair. God she smelt good, even after 3 hours of basketball! Is she magical or what? Damn I wish I had a remote control! Can I pause at this moment please!?
What seemed like an eternity ended with her suddenly pulling away with her face red. I didn’t say a thing. Her friend came down from her house with a cheeky smile and said: “I saw that ;)”
We went back to macs and had our dinner. Talking to Pam was one of the most wonderful things I could do. I could talk about everything under the sun with her and she’s always exciting and hyper. After dinner, I walked her back to the MRT. I wanted to send her home but I didn’t want to push my luck so I didn’t. Just before I went home, Pam looked at me with her soft eyes and said : “Dom, you’re always there when I needed you. Thank you.”
I knew she meant she wanted us to be more. Thank God for telling me to chase after her. Thank God we found her wallet. That’s was the turning the point, the beginning of our special relationship.
But I just turned towards her and smiled : “Hey! What are friends for?”
So many beautiful things happened after that. Though today, we have arrived to a point where I don’t exactly want us to be, but I won’t ever forget the memories we had. I know some part of me, still loves you. But I know with every passing day, this part of me may slowly be sealed. Many must think that I want to forget you. But on the contrary, I don’t want to. Because we had something that people will not have in centuries. We had a love that could conquer all. Perhaps someday, when the sky is blue, the tides of life may bring our paths together again. Perhaps, I’ll find another, or perhaps, our hearts will meet again once more. Till then, I’ll become stronger. Just wait and see.
Though Cinderella was heartbroken in the end,
She never did regret having love and been loved.
Went out with Jovian and Christy today to Causeway Point. Christy went to meet some guy whom she met online. At first she told us that he was a player. But after having dinner with her, me and Jov conclude that he cannot make it. Lol.
My shopping list increased tremendously today! Damn!
Dom’s Wish List
1. Ipod Nano - $100
2. LG Viewty - $338
3. New clothes – Approx $100
4. Basketball Shoes - $100 - $140
5. Basketball - $50
6. Converse Sneakers - $59.90 - $89.90
7. New bank Account - $500
Looks like I’ll be working during the holidays then.
Anyway at Causeway Point, we ate at Mcdonald’s while Christy and her friend ate at Pastamania. When I was at macs, God owned me. It was as if he SMSed me or something.
I was about to put the golden nugget in my mouth when I heard the song playing in the background.
It was Aerosmith’s “Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing”.
It was at this very place, when this very song was playing. I still remember as if it was yesterday.
I was really upset then that she said we could only remain as friends. It was when I was in Innova, a few days before the inter-house basketball tournament. I was practicing alone at the court when she came along.
It was Pam, the girl I adored the most my entire life.
I was a bit taken aback. Here I was practicing for the competition and she just came. She was a beginner in basketball so I offered to teach her how to play the game. I didn’t have any weird ideas in my head except for feeling like I’m the luckiest guy on Earth. I’m playing my favourite game with the girl I love.
I have never fell in deeply in love with anyone else. Everything she did was graceful. I mean if it was my friend and the ball didn’t go in, I would be like “Hmm…” But for her, it’s like the world lighted up for her. Every action every move would be coupled with the song: “There she goes, there she goes again, racing through my head…” She is beautiful :)
Good moments fly fast and soon it was late. I thought of home but she said we should have dinner instead. A 3 hour basketball training and dinner together? I was one lucky guy! We had dinner in the Mac’s at the very table that me and Jov sat at.
I was enjoying my time with her when she suddenly jumped and said that she lost her wallet. She just ran out of Macs without saying anything. I was shocked and didn’t know what to do. That was when that song “Don’t Wanna Miss A Thing” was playing.
A voice in my head said : “Go Dom! Run after her!”
I ran. I remembered how it was. It was the fastest I ever ran. All the way up the escalator, out of the shopping centre, up the overhead bridge and back to the basketball court. She was almost on the verge of tears. She couldn’t find her wallet. It must have been very important to her.
We searched around for quite a while but to no avail. We suddenly thought of one of her friends who were playing there just now. She could have found her wallet and brought it home. She didn’t have a mobile phone then and luckily I brought mine. I called her friend up and luckily her friend had it!
I was like “YEAH! WE FOUND IT! I knew we…”
She hugged me.
I was so shocked. Thinking about it now makes me laugh. I was like a blockhead. The girl of my dreams was hugging me but all I did was to have my hands to my side like I was in “sedia” position.
I didn’t want this moment to end. Everything in the world disappeared when her skin touched mine and everything made sense. For the first time, I felt her warmth, I smelt her hair. God she smelt good, even after 3 hours of basketball! Is she magical or what? Damn I wish I had a remote control! Can I pause at this moment please!?
What seemed like an eternity ended with her suddenly pulling away with her face red. I didn’t say a thing. Her friend came down from her house with a cheeky smile and said: “I saw that ;)”
We went back to macs and had our dinner. Talking to Pam was one of the most wonderful things I could do. I could talk about everything under the sun with her and she’s always exciting and hyper. After dinner, I walked her back to the MRT. I wanted to send her home but I didn’t want to push my luck so I didn’t. Just before I went home, Pam looked at me with her soft eyes and said : “Dom, you’re always there when I needed you. Thank you.”
I knew she meant she wanted us to be more. Thank God for telling me to chase after her. Thank God we found her wallet. That’s was the turning the point, the beginning of our special relationship.
But I just turned towards her and smiled : “Hey! What are friends for?”
So many beautiful things happened after that. Though today, we have arrived to a point where I don’t exactly want us to be, but I won’t ever forget the memories we had. I know some part of me, still loves you. But I know with every passing day, this part of me may slowly be sealed. Many must think that I want to forget you. But on the contrary, I don’t want to. Because we had something that people will not have in centuries. We had a love that could conquer all. Perhaps someday, when the sky is blue, the tides of life may bring our paths together again. Perhaps, I’ll find another, or perhaps, our hearts will meet again once more. Till then, I’ll become stronger. Just wait and see.
Though Cinderella was heartbroken in the end,
She never did regret having love and been loved.
Dom is せつな
Did a little bit of thinking yesterday and decided that it’s weird not having a Jap name since I’m taking Jap.
So I decide to name myself: うちは せつな
In romanji it is Uchiha Setsuna.
The family name has to come first before my name. It’s weird to write Gabriel in Jap so I decide to come out with a pure Hiragana family name. うちは(Uchiha) was the first family name that came to my mind so I used it.
I had a whole list of Jap names and their meanings. I picked せつな (Setsuna) because it simply means an instant, a flash or a moment. I think it pretty much describes me. I go for the short moments in life that makes me happy. Happiness don’t usually last very long for me so I think the name pretty much suits me.
Btw the name has nothing to do with Mobile Suit Gundam 00, though I have to agree that Setsuna.F.Seiei is damn cool ;) I’m sure Crystal will like the name a lot as sometimes it is used as a girl’s name in にほん (Japan) :)
Anyway I’ll try to blog more words in Jap from now on for practice. But for those who don’t understand please do not worry. English dubs will be provided. I’m pretty sure that I’m better than any of the guys in Fansubs in no time to come.
I skipped lesson today cos I didn’t had enough sleep and am studying Business Finance now. Later still going for lecture and ICA. Still have excel solver and Marketing to do. Am feeling the pressure of life that’s ever so heavy on me but I know I can do it. I may lose things often but I always have my friends and Mum.
ぼくわ ぜんたい あきらめない
もって わたしは うちは せつな
I definitely will not give up
Because I'm Uchiha Setsuna ;)
So I decide to name myself: うちは せつな
In romanji it is Uchiha Setsuna.
The family name has to come first before my name. It’s weird to write Gabriel in Jap so I decide to come out with a pure Hiragana family name. うちは(Uchiha) was the first family name that came to my mind so I used it.
I had a whole list of Jap names and their meanings. I picked せつな (Setsuna) because it simply means an instant, a flash or a moment. I think it pretty much describes me. I go for the short moments in life that makes me happy. Happiness don’t usually last very long for me so I think the name pretty much suits me.
Btw the name has nothing to do with Mobile Suit Gundam 00, though I have to agree that Setsuna.F.Seiei is damn cool ;) I’m sure Crystal will like the name a lot as sometimes it is used as a girl’s name in にほん (Japan) :)
Anyway I’ll try to blog more words in Jap from now on for practice. But for those who don’t understand please do not worry. English dubs will be provided. I’m pretty sure that I’m better than any of the guys in Fansubs in no time to come.
I skipped lesson today cos I didn’t had enough sleep and am studying Business Finance now. Later still going for lecture and ICA. Still have excel solver and Marketing to do. Am feeling the pressure of life that’s ever so heavy on me but I know I can do it. I may lose things often but I always have my friends and Mum.
ぼくわ ぜんたい あきらめない
もって わたしは うちは せつな
I definitely will not give up
Because I'm Uchiha Setsuna ;)
Friday, May 23, 2008
Dom Died
My little bro had a bad tummy ache last night and so me and my Mum brought him to the hospital. He was really poor thing because the usual active him was rolling about on the bed and yelping about the pain.
I thought the hospital trip would be a short one but it ended up in bro being admitted. The doctor suspected that he has appendicitis. I know what the pain feels like cos I had it before. It feels like hell when your appendicts is infected. It gets even worse when it bursts! So don’t fool around when you get prolonged tummy aches!
In the end, me and Mum stayed in the hospital the whole night with my bro. He thinks of it as an adventure because he had never been to a hospital besides being born and checked up in one. Reality came up to him when they started inserting all the needles into him for blood test and IV drips. He feels fine now except for the fact that he misses eating solid food as he is on liquids now and he misses TV. He looks better now but if he gets worse, he might have to go for an op.
Sitting in the hospital was a torture. I had nothing to do there except to think. And when I stare into blank space, questions like “Should I go out with Pam?”, “Damn I’m so angry with her!”, “What should I do?” will pop up.
I still can’t find an answer. A huge part of me is just so pissed with her. We were supposed to go out on Friday always. She said part of her reason of doing what ever she is doing now is because she wants more time to call me and more time to be with me. I blindly believed in it.
But she crushed my faith when I called her and she asked: “We are going out on Friday? Aren’t we going out today?”
I got really pissed. How could she forget about our promise? And what kind of lame reasons does she come out with. If you really thought it was Thursday, then why didn’t you call me?
She then asked me: “How was your tournament?”
I recalled on Wednesday I had the support of every single person I knew except her. So I had to call her up to REMIND her to cheer me on. Never mind the fact that I have to REMIND her. She now asked me about a tournament that was played a day ago. She didn’t even bothered to call me on the day itself and find out how I did.
To even bolster the fact that she doesn’t even think about me, I heard techno music blasting in the background.
“Where are you?” I asked expecting a NICE answer from her.
“Oh I’m at illegal street racing with my ‘Brother’. Cool right? Can you hear the cars? *Sound of drifting”
“It’s a little inconvenient to talk with you now. Some other time k?”
I was so angry that she forgotten about our date. And she pushed me away because of other people she knew just for three weeks. I just said:
“This is so expected of you Pam. Bye”
And I put the phone down.
I’m so heartbroken.
My heart’s already twisted and wringed by you. Why are you doing this to me?
You first said:
“Can we change our status to friends for now please? A lot of people chasing me now and it’s really awkward for me.”
It was a shock for me. I needed time to recover.
And there came another one.
“So how? They can chase me. But I dun need it accept mah… At least, I get a life. More friends, and night life. So? Pls pls pls…”
I had no choice but to say yes.
I was confused and I wanted a clear status. But you claimed:
“Its not a break up mah… Jus a relationship on hold la. Can?”
Am I fool to even consent to it.? I have so many doubts. I feel so unsettled. And you said:
“Baby I’m doing this so that we can have more time together. I can call you more often and go out with you since now you are like all of them as suitors so I’m not biased to any.”
It broke my heart but I still say yes. Why do I have to accommodate other guys? Are they more important than me?
But even after I said yes, you didn’t keep your promise. Instead you gave all your time to them. You never called, you never listened. I’ve been through so much and you never bothered to find out.
When I was sick I called you. I can’t even tell whether you were worried cos it didn’t sound like it from your tone. I’m just sick and needed some reassurance. But instead you said:
“Baby I’m sorry. The more you do this, the more irritated I get.”
You told me about your adventure with the pilot. Oh ya for God’s sake he’s not a pilot. There’s a big difference between one and an unmanned aircraft specialist. Though I said it didn’t matter to me anymore, can’t you tell I’m hurt? Sure he drives a Peugeot, is a specialist and is earning probably 10 times than me. But for God’s sake, ain’t my love worth a thing?
I tried to imply I was better. I believed I could give more. I believed that I was in the wrong. I was truly sorry about not giving my best to you. I don’t have a car, money and I’m not exactly the most considerate guy around. But I love you Pam.
But you told me:
“Yea. But I was serious last night. I wanna take care of you. But I also want someone who can take care of me. Make me feel protected, think for me. You’re are more like a son now. I need someone who’s more matured then me and can take care of my feelings.”
You don’t know how much that hurts. HELLO? HOW CAN A GUY PROTECT A GIRL WHEN A GIRL DOES NOT EVEN CONSIDER HIS FEELINGS FIRST!
You tell me about your late hangouts of supper and with your friends at work. Let’s be realistic. I think they are interested in you. Can you be sure that you’ll always be safe? I’m worried DAMN IT!
You go clubbing and you got invited to the stage to dance. Cool. But the fact that other guys were dancing with you and had their hands on you was not cool at all.
You never message me. Maybe the guys should make the first move. Granted, I SMS you first. But after a few SMSes, you replied:
“Wah baby u keep msg not scared no money pay bill?”
This sounds like a real legitimate reason. But it ain’t good enough for me because I’ve seen you SMSing so many other guys during our dates. So SMSing me is now a waste of money?
“Ok. Don’t SMS. Call me.”
“Huh… Ok. But I don’t wanna call. Very lazy lor
You were even cruel enough to take away our Friday. And you never told me why.
And then you said you wanted to meet on Friday night again suddenly. And then you said sorry I have to work on Friday night. It crushed me again.
I’m lonely, deprived, emo, lost and severely heartbroken.
I called you a liar.
Just when I thought I could hear something good from you to defend yourself, you said:
“Wei. Lie to you about? If its about work schedule it’s always changing one… Where got lie?”
“Don’t worry k? Soon I’ll spend enough time with you.”
WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT?
AM I NOT WORTH YOUR TIME NOW?
AM I NOT WORTHY AS COMPARED TO OTHERS?
I’M NOT TALKING ABOUT WORK HERE!
YOU ARE SPENDING MORE TIME WITH OTHER GUYS THAN ME!
I THINK THAT’S SOMETHING I CAN BE ANGRY ABOUT!
Then best reason of all:
“Actually if u comparing to them. U must think leh. Theirs is they ask me out, then they will drive me out and back so can hang out later and spend more time.”
So it’s now my fault that you don’t spend enough time with me.
You don’t call anymore. You don’t go out with me as often anymore. I’m not the most important person anymore.
Well let me tell you what I think.
I’m damn well worthy of anyone on this damn earth.
I’m starting to hate you. I’m starting to not even remember how you loved me.
I don’t hear the same voice coming from you now.
Do you even love me now? I bet you can’t even answer that question now.
Did the Pam that I loved died a month ago?
The Pam I see now is so different.
There’s no turning back now.
Maybe we should all move along.
I will change myself. This Dom ain’t worth anyone to get. I know as long I be this true to someone, that someone will exploit it. This is not revenge. I will protect myself from now on.
Why waste myself? I’ll kill my good self which loves you. Once and for all.
Even if it consumes me, I will.
Devotion and love don’t mean a thing in this world. After all, fairy tales don’t exist. Just like our love, it’s just a lie.
But I’ll change that. The world will change someday. But our love, never will. It died, the day you went away.
Someday you’ll realize. That day when I held your hand, that day when we first kissed in Sentosa, that day when we hugged cos I showed how much you mean to me and you found out how much I mean to you. All the adventures that we have been through, all the love that we had and made, all of those you shall never forget as long as your soul lingers in this world.
The truth is some part of you will always love me. But you’re too self-centered to notice now.
When you realize it, it’s too late.
I ain’t gonna love anyone like that again.
Because fairytales,
Are all lies.
Thursday, May 22, 2008
Sweet Dreams and Bad Memories
Dreamt about her last night. It was really sweet but then it ended when I woke up and found my right leg hurting like hell. (To Jov, Park and JF: Nope it was not about sex. It’s a really sweet dream)
Am I lonely? Am I trying to use her to substitute Pam?
Or is she really different and I really like her?
I guess time will tell then. But truly speaking, I think she’s cute that’s all.
But she’s really sweet and all. I find that I’m always getting distracted in lecture because of her. The way she brushes her hair with her hand, the way she smiles. Her actions are all really CUTE! But come on, she’s just another cute girl. I mean I don’t have any deep special feelings for her. Just another regular cute girl. That’s all.
But classic scenario, she has a boyfriend. I’m tired now so I’m not gonna pull off any stunt. Lol so much for being a Guru huh? (Tribute to me by Park & Jiafeng) I’m fine with just looking at her and admiring her everyday. Perhaps one day, I’ll only think of her and not Pam. Lol easier said than done.
My heart is still aching. When I’m in school and at work I don’t feel it. But when I’m at home alone, just like now, I feel a deep cut in my heart. It’s bleeding. I’m still asking myself whether I’ll go out with her tomorrow but I guess it’s a redundant question. I know I will.
Mum says its over. Even if she comes back to me, when is the next time she’s gonna leave again? It’s like Maroon 5’s “This Love”.
This Love is taking its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before.
Its killing me. I ain’t playing this game anymore.
I’m upset again and yeah I guess I’m naturally Emo boy.
I’ve been really missing out on school a lot. Business Finance’s ICA is on Monday and I don’t know anything about it. Marketing’s ICA is due on Friday and nothing is done. All I can think of is tomorrow.
Will it be weird?
Is she gonna hold my hand? Am I gonna hold hers?
Am I going to push her away and say it’s over?
Where are we going to go?
Am I going to kiss her?
Oh geez do I still love or lust after her? Gosh NO WAY! I hope not :(
Or worse, am I even going out with her tomorrow?
I don’t want to be soft-hearted anymore. I don’t want my heart to melt when I see her. Even if she apologizes, I must not forgive her. I hope I will not. I don’t want to be hurt like this anymore. It really hurts like shit. I know part of it is my fault. But Mum’s right. I think she’s really selfish and I don’t feel any respect from her. I need someone who cares about me, not someone who cares about herself.
I wanna go for a run now. But my leg’s hurting from yesterday’s fall at the court. Back’s hurting as well when I try to make a jumpshot so I can’t go and play ball. So I guess I’ll have no choice but to rest at home and think about things.
Jov just asked me out for tomorrow. Maybe I should call Pam later and then decide who to go out with. Damn hungry now wish Mum would quickly finish cooking. Thanks Mum for your perpetually wonderful cooking. You gotta teach me how to cook someday k?! I wanna take this opportunity to thank God for giving me such a good Mum too! :)
Damn bored… Ok… Maybe I should conduct an activity here to cheer myself up. Ok buddies time to use the tagboard!
Questions
1. What kind of girl do you think Dom should date? Describe her.
2. Should he go out with Pam tomorrow?
(10 marks)
Please tag your answers on the tagboard and show me some action! But please follow the rules. (Gosh my blog is starting to look like an ICA paper! Don’t freak out my friends :) This may look like a test but come on! You don’t have to study for it!
Rules:
1. Please don’t give me lame answers. You know what kind of girls I like and don’t like.
2. Please don’t spam here about sex. Yeah I care pretty much about sex but sex is not everything. I need someone to love me not give me sex.
3. No offence but I prefer Chinese girls. But not necessarily. Please don’t be racist!
4. Eh… You can give names but please, don’t embarrass me. Follow the question.
5. I don’t want a fling.
6. I’m not gay, neither am I Bi.
7. Please note there are 2 questions.
8. This rule is for all, but especially for Alvin & Jovian. Please don’t Elo me and put names like Drogba. I like Drogba, but as a footballer :)
9. If your name is mentioned on the tagboard, please do not be alarmed. It doesn’t mean anything, like Duh?
10. I believe I have intelligent friends. Don’t disappoint me :P
Am I lonely? Am I trying to use her to substitute Pam?
Or is she really different and I really like her?
I guess time will tell then. But truly speaking, I think she’s cute that’s all.
But she’s really sweet and all. I find that I’m always getting distracted in lecture because of her. The way she brushes her hair with her hand, the way she smiles. Her actions are all really CUTE! But come on, she’s just another cute girl. I mean I don’t have any deep special feelings for her. Just another regular cute girl. That’s all.
But classic scenario, she has a boyfriend. I’m tired now so I’m not gonna pull off any stunt. Lol so much for being a Guru huh? (Tribute to me by Park & Jiafeng) I’m fine with just looking at her and admiring her everyday. Perhaps one day, I’ll only think of her and not Pam. Lol easier said than done.
My heart is still aching. When I’m in school and at work I don’t feel it. But when I’m at home alone, just like now, I feel a deep cut in my heart. It’s bleeding. I’m still asking myself whether I’ll go out with her tomorrow but I guess it’s a redundant question. I know I will.
Mum says its over. Even if she comes back to me, when is the next time she’s gonna leave again? It’s like Maroon 5’s “This Love”.
This Love is taking its toll on me
She said goodbye too many times before.
Its killing me. I ain’t playing this game anymore.
I’m upset again and yeah I guess I’m naturally Emo boy.
I’ve been really missing out on school a lot. Business Finance’s ICA is on Monday and I don’t know anything about it. Marketing’s ICA is due on Friday and nothing is done. All I can think of is tomorrow.
Will it be weird?
Is she gonna hold my hand? Am I gonna hold hers?
Am I going to push her away and say it’s over?
Where are we going to go?
Am I going to kiss her?
Oh geez do I still love or lust after her? Gosh NO WAY! I hope not :(
Or worse, am I even going out with her tomorrow?
I don’t want to be soft-hearted anymore. I don’t want my heart to melt when I see her. Even if she apologizes, I must not forgive her. I hope I will not. I don’t want to be hurt like this anymore. It really hurts like shit. I know part of it is my fault. But Mum’s right. I think she’s really selfish and I don’t feel any respect from her. I need someone who cares about me, not someone who cares about herself.
I wanna go for a run now. But my leg’s hurting from yesterday’s fall at the court. Back’s hurting as well when I try to make a jumpshot so I can’t go and play ball. So I guess I’ll have no choice but to rest at home and think about things.
Jov just asked me out for tomorrow. Maybe I should call Pam later and then decide who to go out with. Damn hungry now wish Mum would quickly finish cooking. Thanks Mum for your perpetually wonderful cooking. You gotta teach me how to cook someday k?! I wanna take this opportunity to thank God for giving me such a good Mum too! :)
Damn bored… Ok… Maybe I should conduct an activity here to cheer myself up. Ok buddies time to use the tagboard!
Questions
1. What kind of girl do you think Dom should date? Describe her.
2. Should he go out with Pam tomorrow?
(10 marks)
Please tag your answers on the tagboard and show me some action! But please follow the rules. (Gosh my blog is starting to look like an ICA paper! Don’t freak out my friends :) This may look like a test but come on! You don’t have to study for it!
Rules:
1. Please don’t give me lame answers. You know what kind of girls I like and don’t like.
2. Please don’t spam here about sex. Yeah I care pretty much about sex but sex is not everything. I need someone to love me not give me sex.
3. No offence but I prefer Chinese girls. But not necessarily. Please don’t be racist!
4. Eh… You can give names but please, don’t embarrass me. Follow the question.
5. I don’t want a fling.
6. I’m not gay, neither am I Bi.
7. Please note there are 2 questions.
8. This rule is for all, but especially for Alvin & Jovian. Please don’t Elo me and put names like Drogba. I like Drogba, but as a footballer :)
9. If your name is mentioned on the tagboard, please do not be alarmed. It doesn’t mean anything, like Duh?
10. I believe I have intelligent friends. Don’t disappoint me :P
I Have The Coolest and Best Mum Ever
Yesterday’s 3 on 3 ended with us winning 3 matches and losing 2. Even though we lost, I can say that my team has given their best and we are strong. But we can become stronger. I have to thank Jovian, Koon How, Jiafeng and Levin (don’t know if his name is spelt like this) for their best.
This tournament has brought to my attention that while I’m slacking, there are many others that have become better than me. Rather than throwing in the towel, I have decided to start gyming and basketball again. One day, I’ll show my skills in the court just like I used to J Thanks Jov for the inspiration you brought about in me.
After the tournament, we had dinner in Bishan S11 coffeeshop with Jiafeng, Jov, Christy and Alvin. We were talking about the topic Sex (AGAIN?!) and I have no idea why it has to revolve around me. Lol good luck to Jiafeng and Alvin about grinding gals (or GUYS? Hey you guys seem to show Bi-preferences) in the clubs. And please no talking about cum while we are eating mayonnaise sauce. I ain’t gonna touch Western food for about a week now.
A battered up me went home and had another round of dinner with my Mum. Mum asked me about Pam and I told her everything. She had a nice talk with me but we were interrupted by my brother who pulled a nice move on me. He was playing with my wallet and he pulled out a nice silver packet.
A condom.
He asked my mum what was it.
In my head I was like : “Uh oh… What do I say? My friend gave it to me for my birthday? And I have it in my wallet because I forgot to take it out?”
I thought Mum was gonna blow up. Instead she smiled and said: “Son keep your private things properly.”
I smiled back. My brother insisted to know what was the silver packet. My mum managed to convince him that it was coffee sweetener ;) For a moment there, I thought I was a goner.
So I guess Mum knew about my private life after all.
This morning over breakfast table, Mum gave me a lesson on picking the right gals. She said I should find someone better who is able to take care of me and stay by my side. Just when I was about to say: “Mum, No. I won’t be able to survive with those gals that are very quiet, everyday stay at home and have not even a little bit of wildness in them.”
My mum laughed and said she knows what I’m are thinking about.
“Son, don’t find someone who’s like that. She doesn’t suit you. Find someone who is naughty, but sticks to you and truly loves you.”
I was like pure ownage. If you play DOTA you would know what I mean. The computer would start screaming: “OWNAGE! Dom’s Mum is GODLIKE! Somebody kill DOM!”
In laymen’s terms, I’m totally owned by my Mum. I thought we drifted apart when I grew up. In the end, she still knows best about me. She knows about my private life (God knows how did she know!), she knows what kind of girl I want, she knows what I do during my dates, she knows how I behave when my ex-girlfriend gets angry. Man! My mum’s cool! I mean like wow!
So I guess I’m still close to my mum after all. I still have my family and friends so I guess I have things to be happy about after all :) But one thing still remains for sure, I’m still wanna find out what my Mum actually thinks about my private life. Is she angry, sad, proud or amused about it? Was she a player when she was young or the goody two shoes? I think the former suits her more but nah! How can that be? My mum’s like the best girl I ever know! She’s the kind that will stick to one man and one family and stand by them even if the sky falls lol!
In case any of you guys are wondering, Nope! I don’t have a private life anymore and stop asking me questions about it though I can provide a little advice if you really need it. And why do I have a condom in my wallet? Well, it’s a little like a gun. It’s best to have it when there’s no need for it then to not have one when you need it. I'm now a good man and I only want to do my best in my studies, gym and have fun with my buddies :)
Whatever the case, Thanks mum for the concern and love you gave me through the years. Thanks for sticking by Dad and our family and for working so hard for us. You know me the best and you’ll always will. Though I know you’ll never read my blog, I want you to know that I’ll make you proud.
This tournament has brought to my attention that while I’m slacking, there are many others that have become better than me. Rather than throwing in the towel, I have decided to start gyming and basketball again. One day, I’ll show my skills in the court just like I used to J Thanks Jov for the inspiration you brought about in me.
After the tournament, we had dinner in Bishan S11 coffeeshop with Jiafeng, Jov, Christy and Alvin. We were talking about the topic Sex (AGAIN?!) and I have no idea why it has to revolve around me. Lol good luck to Jiafeng and Alvin about grinding gals (or GUYS? Hey you guys seem to show Bi-preferences) in the clubs. And please no talking about cum while we are eating mayonnaise sauce. I ain’t gonna touch Western food for about a week now.
A battered up me went home and had another round of dinner with my Mum. Mum asked me about Pam and I told her everything. She had a nice talk with me but we were interrupted by my brother who pulled a nice move on me. He was playing with my wallet and he pulled out a nice silver packet.
A condom.
He asked my mum what was it.
In my head I was like : “Uh oh… What do I say? My friend gave it to me for my birthday? And I have it in my wallet because I forgot to take it out?”
I thought Mum was gonna blow up. Instead she smiled and said: “Son keep your private things properly.”
I smiled back. My brother insisted to know what was the silver packet. My mum managed to convince him that it was coffee sweetener ;) For a moment there, I thought I was a goner.
So I guess Mum knew about my private life after all.
This morning over breakfast table, Mum gave me a lesson on picking the right gals. She said I should find someone better who is able to take care of me and stay by my side. Just when I was about to say: “Mum, No. I won’t be able to survive with those gals that are very quiet, everyday stay at home and have not even a little bit of wildness in them.”
My mum laughed and said she knows what I’m are thinking about.
“Son, don’t find someone who’s like that. She doesn’t suit you. Find someone who is naughty, but sticks to you and truly loves you.”
I was like pure ownage. If you play DOTA you would know what I mean. The computer would start screaming: “OWNAGE! Dom’s Mum is GODLIKE! Somebody kill DOM!”
In laymen’s terms, I’m totally owned by my Mum. I thought we drifted apart when I grew up. In the end, she still knows best about me. She knows about my private life (God knows how did she know!), she knows what kind of girl I want, she knows what I do during my dates, she knows how I behave when my ex-girlfriend gets angry. Man! My mum’s cool! I mean like wow!
So I guess I’m still close to my mum after all. I still have my family and friends so I guess I have things to be happy about after all :) But one thing still remains for sure, I’m still wanna find out what my Mum actually thinks about my private life. Is she angry, sad, proud or amused about it? Was she a player when she was young or the goody two shoes? I think the former suits her more but nah! How can that be? My mum’s like the best girl I ever know! She’s the kind that will stick to one man and one family and stand by them even if the sky falls lol!
In case any of you guys are wondering, Nope! I don’t have a private life anymore and stop asking me questions about it though I can provide a little advice if you really need it. And why do I have a condom in my wallet? Well, it’s a little like a gun. It’s best to have it when there’s no need for it then to not have one when you need it. I'm now a good man and I only want to do my best in my studies, gym and have fun with my buddies :)
Whatever the case, Thanks mum for the concern and love you gave me through the years. Thanks for sticking by Dad and our family and for working so hard for us. You know me the best and you’ll always will. Though I know you’ll never read my blog, I want you to know that I’ll make you proud.
And I love you :)
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
3 on 3
Tommorow is the day.
We have trained hard for it. We have shed blood and sweat for it.
3 on 3 tournament here we come ;)
Though I'm not as good as I was last time, I'm determined to try my best. I'm hungry for gold. It's been a long time since I held a medal in my hands.
Alot had happened this past week. I broke up with my girl again and I'm very upset over it. But this time it's different. I'm determined to change myself for the better. I disappointed her. Even if at the end of the road I end up with someone else, I would still want to be the best. I want to have m own business. I want to drive a Lamborghini in 7 years time. I have a desire and passion and I'm on a mission. Come on!
But for now I'm still getting used to being alone. Period. I have to still study for stupid ICA for ICT tomorrow. I hate ICT!
But sick now with cold and flu. Hopefully it doesn't affect my performance tomorrow. Can't think of anything else now except sleep.
As promised Crystal, tomorrow will be the post of us winning the championship. And I'll give a reply to your post Christy :P
Can't wait for the match tomorrow. Let the games begin :)
We have trained hard for it. We have shed blood and sweat for it.
3 on 3 tournament here we come ;)
Though I'm not as good as I was last time, I'm determined to try my best. I'm hungry for gold. It's been a long time since I held a medal in my hands.
Alot had happened this past week. I broke up with my girl again and I'm very upset over it. But this time it's different. I'm determined to change myself for the better. I disappointed her. Even if at the end of the road I end up with someone else, I would still want to be the best. I want to have m own business. I want to drive a Lamborghini in 7 years time. I have a desire and passion and I'm on a mission. Come on!
But for now I'm still getting used to being alone. Period. I have to still study for stupid ICA for ICT tomorrow. I hate ICT!
But sick now with cold and flu. Hopefully it doesn't affect my performance tomorrow. Can't think of anything else now except sleep.
As promised Crystal, tomorrow will be the post of us winning the championship. And I'll give a reply to your post Christy :P
Can't wait for the match tomorrow. Let the games begin :)
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