Don't Believe What You See

You don’t know me

Seriously… My world inside of me and outside is totally different.

Outside is a seemingly beautiful world of green.

But inside is a destructive world of hate, anger and vengeance.

There are some things in Life that has happened and I can’t change. I have no choice but to leave them this way. They are beyond my control.

Home is something I can only wish for. There is no true peace here.

I can date all the beautiful girls in the world. But God knows why I’m still empty.

Happiness seems so far away. I’ve forgotten the taste of total bliss.

But growing up with all these pain has smoldered my heart. The seemingly always happy and carefree boy has grown into a man full of responsibilities, cool and sometimes cold. When you see me EMO it simply means that I’m reminded of stuff. Don’t say things like “Dom don’t be so emo.” It ain’t gonna work. I’m just like that. I will not change for anyone or do things for anyone unless I feel like doing so. The only person who did it correctly is someone I just befriended this year. She actually cheered me up with her lame jokes. You know who you are ;) Thanks!

I know what I can do now. I have the ability to achieve my dreams. Everyday I try to achieve perfection despite my efforts always being thwarted by work and other commitments. And no, I don’t come to school late on purpose. But I will fight, I will fight on. Because I know someday… Someday I will find that something that makes me truly happy. Someday, I will achieve all my dreams and have my purpose served.

And no I don’t hate anyone nor is my anger or vengeance directed to anyone. That’s the reason why I’m happy sometimes. Duh? I’m just have my own issues to settle.

I know that God has not put me here to kick my butt. He put me here in this bad situation for a reason. He wants me to learn the hard way. He knows me too well. I’ve would have gotten serious superior complexity if I was not here. I know I can be the best and can be better. If I was in a good situation in the first place, I would become too proud and undermine myself in the end. Learning how to be humble is not too bad an experience too. I’ve made lots of new friends and learnt lots of new things.

Perhaps one day, I will find all the things I want. I know I will… I will succeed. Because I will not give up ;)

Pain a set of footsteps
It brings you right to the door of happiness

The Boss, Guys Hangout & A Confusing Date

Woke up at 7:30am today as I had to reach Lavender at 9:30am to help out in Jovian, Christy, Yee Pei, Bryce and Jeffery's Supply Chain project. I had to wear formal cos I was acting as the boss :) I reached there early (hey big achievement ok...), but those buddies of mine seriously owned me. They were afraid of me being late and actually called me to reach there half an hour earlier. Very smart! Next time I will reach half an hour later :)

Met Jeffery today and he's really a nice and funny guy! Haha we went to Christy's Dad's office to film our little skit. Christy's dad turned out to be the inventor of some cleaning device and it's really cool cos I got to see him in person! Wow! I saw the newspaper article of him and the mop water filter he invented. It was inspitational for me to see an entrepreneur and inventor right in front of me. He was a very friendly and helpful man and even offered to buy us lunch. He even lend us some of his goods to use in his videos! Wow awesome one Man!

Jovian was the narrator for introduction and the main cameraman. Yee Pei and Christy acted as the various managers vying for the supply chain manager position. Lol Yee Pei's name for some reason became Pei Foong in the project and Christy's name became Bimbo Lim. Bryce and Jeffery became Ah Zui and Ah Long respectively and were workers. I am the Boss, Mr Gabriel ;)

Haha all of us were damn funny. Christy's role is damn flirty and she always flirts with the boss. Yee Pei's role is the serious and hardworking manager. Jovian's role is the lazy supply chain manager who got fired. You guys should see the sexy dance he did. It was damn dope lol. My role is the charming but logical boss :) Bryce was the best. He's the worker cum cleaner cum stuntman. He play stunt so many times and fell down God knows how many times! If Bruce Lee was still alive you must go be his double lol!

Though it was a little tiring to wake up so early, it was worth it cos I got to have alot of fun and I managed to help my friends! Good luck for your project my friends!

After the project me Jov and Bryce went to the National library to study. In the end we ended up talking cock and stuff. We watched the Britain's Got Talent Signature Video like 3 times and still laugh like crazy. Got a few hot chicks were in the library but too bad they were Ah lians... Got this girl damn bloke she was like beside us and she was showing off her panty. I was like Wtf... Why do some girls just don't know how to sit properly? Total turn off man :(

After the enriching guys session, I went out for my date with Pam and we watched Get Smart. It's seriously damn nice and I totally laughed my ass out, in and out again the whole show. Steve Carell is one good comedian and Anne Hathaway is one HOT HOT WOMAN! I think my abs are aching now from all that laughing. Chuck Noris with a BB gun! Now that's a serious good one!

We had Subway after the movie and the Snapple promotion there was great. It felt like the old times but just with me being older and more mature. But it's confusing really... What to do? Only time can decide. Meanwhile I have to make use of my time, and do what I do best.

Time to sleep. Tomorrow is Katakana revision time!!!

Perhaps we are star-crossed
Never meant to be
Perhaps we are lovers
Longing but always waiting
Perhaps we were something
Doomed to become nothing
Perhaps this love
Will always remain buried in the abyss of my heart
You know what?
Whatever...
Cos some part of this wretched heart
Will always love you

Official Launch of Projects

Firstly I wanna thank all the people who have given my blog and myself the utmost support. THANK YOU :)

Ok many people don't know this, but I draw.

Nope I'm not talking about stickmen. I'm talking about realism, manga.

Drawing is a kind of inspiration for me. I don't like to draw on the spot drawings. Alot of my friends ask me to do on the spot and they often don't turn out well cos its not my style. I only draw because of two reasons:

1. I have a sudden inspiration
2. I have deep feelings for the object that I'm drawing

So try not to ask me to do on the spot. I'm just not at that level yet.

Many people ask me what do I draw. I don't really stick to a genre but I prefer drawing girls than guys. Geez seriously if I have a stylus and drawing pad now, my ass is so gonna stick to it 24-7 cracking out some good drawings!

I've decided to officially launch my drawing projects up here so that I WILL DRAW THEM!!!

First project due this year is the "NARUTO PROJECT". The Naruto project will basically contain portraits of Naruto characters in battle. Each character will have a single portrait. The first one is a portrait of Hyuuga Neji with his Eight Trigrams stance. The best part, I'm gonna upload it here and in Devianart! So be excited and wait for it!!!

The second project, which I think can be only completed by next year is called the "Seven Goodness of the World". Previously there has been a series on Devianart on the seven sins. I've decided to give a reply to that ;) with the seven goodness. Nope it's not lame and if you still think it is then wait till you see the first piece. Anyway to that Devianart artist: Your drawings are great and you're totally awesome! Anyway women will only be featured in this series.

The final project declared here today is the "Elemental Series". More details of this series will be released later. To be fair, both guys and girls will be featured in this series depending on my mood. But most likely more girls will turn out as I'm better at drawing chicks :)

I hope I get another inspiration tonight. Time to sleep. Tomorrow I will be featured on Jovian's project video as the boss! Lol

NEW BLOGSKIN but with BUGS

NEW BLOGSKIN!!! HOORAY!!!

I'm sick of being EMO! (For now)

So off with the EMO blogskin and in with the cute funky Naruto skin.

Yeah I'm a fan of Naruto. (nope Crystal that does not make me a fanboy).

Top reason why I choose this skin: I hope it inspires me to draw again.

Whatever. I promise a good update on the blog today, which I better do due to all the roaring done here lol.

Be here 26th June. A new post will come!

Gonna sleep now. Any bugs on the new skin will have to wait till tomorrow.

Sayonara!

Burning with desire
Lack of sleep lol

Deep and Meaningless

I, I don't know why I miss you so much

Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch

You, you left me feeling high and dry

With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction

And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

If you call me today

I'll say that I'm fine

But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice

It's just a lie

You knew what you had

You still walked away leaving me in this mess

My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me

And I, I guess I was too blind to see

Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad

But I'd do it again to relive what we had(Damn that's sad)

There are many things left to remind me

Of a love that I just can't leave behind me

Busy Week

Man it's a busy week.

Finally handed up Marketing project on Tuesday. I'm probably the last guy on Earth to hand it up but I'm just glad it's over. Lol I caused a major mayhem and Annie Tan and Louisa had to settle it for me. But whatever it's over and I'm gonna own for Marketing ICA 2 to make up for it ;)

Went out with Hui Ling, Sok Yee and Shu Ai on Wednesday to watch Sex and The City. Met their other friends later and haha hell was it fun! You guys are crazy lol. Sex and The City was the best show that I ever watched this year so 5 stars for it! Yeah!

Went to EFMA ICA today (finally!). I studied really hard for it and completed it in 20 minutes. Haha I guess hard work really does pay off :) Full marks here I come!

2 weeks hols. Seems like a long time but it's really short. With that much projects to handle and my job :( it seems like it's gonna end in flash. Wish that I can have a 2 months hols! Yes i'm greedy but so what?

Hmm got a tag on my blog that says I'm despo. I can't help but feel amused by that. If you were here next to me I would personally slap you.

Lol. I think all the guys around me are more despo than me. I don't need a woman, neither do I need a person to live. I'm myself and I stay this way.

I don't care what you think about me and I live my own life.

If you think I'm despo, you're very wrong. Like Duh? I don't need a girl. Got too many of em last time already and now it's time to be with just myself.

I need to be stronger and I need to do this on my own.

My goal: To be いちばん　がくせいで

I'll do anything to get there.

I'm despo, for studies, not for anything else ;)

Cheers
せつな

Hot Girls are hard to find cos WE AIN'T JERKS!

I came across a life breaking discovery today.

I was bored to nuts at work today. I was so busy that I wanted badly to stop work. With no choice, I did what every guy with balls would do when he’s bored: Look at hot chicks.

1st minute: Damn it no hot chicks! All aunties!

2nd minute: Oh god did all of the hot chicks in the world died?

15 minutes later: Ooh… She’s cute. Long hair, nice figure, pretty face. Totally Miss Sunshine. Wait… There’s this guy behind her. Ok she’s with him. But he looks really feminine. Maybe she’s got a bad taste for guys. And wtf he just called me over with a feminine hand gesture.

25 minutes later: Another hot chick. This one’s is with a boyfriend that has a face that reads: “I’m gonna punch your face punk”. And it’s there all the time on his face. Wonder whether he’s even happy to see her…

40 minutes later: Haiz… Damn it now only got Ah lians… Screw it whatever, no fish got prawn. Heh but what’s that scrawny Ah beng doing to her? Oh he’s touching her butt. Wtf…

1 hour 50 minutes later: Aren’t there any single hot girls who’s not dating a weird guy?

Just then I made a life breaking discovery. What I found out is going to change our lifes. Definitely gonna change your life Bryce and Jovian.

Hot girls like jerks.

Yes you heard me right.

Lol. Nope I’m not asking you to be an asshole.

Here’s the definition of jerk here:
Bad
Definitely irritating to the other male species.
For some reason are able to blind the female species.
Definitely know what they are doing.
Not Mr. Overly Nice Guy

I realized my mistakes that I made in the past. I was such a pussy. I was too nice. As a guy, our minds are really simple. You can’t blame us. Our lifes are all based quantitatively. You hold my hand more, I happy. You want me more I also happy. You tell me you love me everyday, I very happy. You give me more and more sex everyday, I happy. The point is, we fail to see that more is not good. We always give our best and in the end outdo ourselves.

I can tell you that 90% of the guys in the world are dumb. Classic example in a guys mind: Boy like girl. Boy friend girl. Boy tells girl he likes her. They live happily ever after.

Well boy, let the guru give you a little education. It does not work that way.

Try now and go straight away and tell the girl you admire that you like her. Confirm 99.99999999% you will fail. Once you do that she will only run away from you. Or worse, make use of you.

The only way to heighten your chances of getting the girl you really want is to increase your marketability. Make yourself high in demand. I’m not asking you to two-time or three-time your girlfriends. I’m asking you to stick to one, or be single, but don’t keep yourself out of demand.

To be high in demand, you gotta be bad. Go for the masses. Not just for one. NOTE: Please don’t make commitments when you can’t keep them. Two-timing or XX-timing definitely qualifies you as Full-time Asshole. Bring bad is not about collecting as many girlfriends as possible. It’s about playing smart using the numbers games and your words. Basically you are making as much female friends as possible and go out with as many of them but you don’t make any commitments. The smart guy would only truly target one when he goes out with a bunch of girls. Like DUH?

Women like bad boys. They just got a thing for them.

NOTE: “BAD” is not equal to “ASSHOLE” For example, not helping your girl when she seriously needs you terms you as an”ASSHOLE”. Slapping or abusing your girl also terms you as an “ASSHOLE”. But letting her heart flutter and don’t let her know what you really feel about her is “BAD”. Bringing her to cloud nine with your words and then bring her down straight to earth is also “BAD”. But vulgarities definitely make you an “ASSHOLE”.

If you secretly admire someone now, take action. But not by telling her you like her. Increase your marketability. Talk to her, tease her, give her nicknames, make her remember you. Women are like kittens. Once they are interested in something, they will die to get it. And don’t be an AK-47 and spam your attacks on one girl. Be a Magnum Rifle. Aim, slow and be patient, and then shoot with a head-shot. Get multiple head shots and multiple kills but concentrate on what you are really aiming for. The rest are just there for you to get the real deal. You’ll get what you want. Remember, you can’t make someone like you by telling her you like her. It’s all about being bad and making the right moves.

Only when you really know she likes you then maybe you can take the first step. But before that, you got lots of work to do.

Bonus:

Examples when you are being a pussy but you don’t know it:

1. Begging your girlfriend to stay with you
2. Relying on her like she’s your life pillar
3. Whine about doing stuff for her when she goes out with somebody else. I’m sorry but I personally think that’s ridiculous.
4. Your whole solar universe revolves around her
5. Being emo when she’s gone. I can’t help but laugh at myself and people I know who do that.

Most guys would be like: “Are you crazy?! But I thought it was normal to do all those?”

Nope I tested it out. Ain’t crazy.

Last week me and Pam went out. She was happily telling me about her adventures with her “pals” and I was like “uh hmm oh ok.”

I cared about it but I pretended not to. Then I made the killer move.

Told her about some girl I’m interested in now. Totally praised that girl until she’s like some goddess. It’s super effective cos I only used to do it to her.

Now that’s a super good example of being “BAD”.

Instant kill and effect.

She got worried and angry. At first I tried to comfort her. Then decided to be bad and not to.

In the end DOUBLE KILL, she said sorry and some more become extra gentle towards me.

Instant gratification.

Use your moves wisely. Plan for the kill. But don’t overdo it. And never break a woman’s heart. We play the game fair. No hurting of anyone here.

And we are not gonna be jerks. We are gonna be SMART men lol.

But please. If you are one of those rare 2% of people in the world who’s super lovey dovey and nothing in the world can stop you and all, then ignore this post please. Lol. Cos you guys already own!

Gotta go hope I blog soon again. [PS: I hope I don’t get stoned by all the girls I know lol ;)]