Don't Believe What You See

You don’t know me

Seriously… My world inside of me and outside is totally different.

Outside is a seemingly beautiful world of green.

But inside is a destructive world of hate, anger and vengeance.

There are some things in Life that has happened and I can’t change. I have no choice but to leave them this way. They are beyond my control.

Home is something I can only wish for. There is no true peace here.

I can date all the beautiful girls in the world. But God knows why I’m still empty.

Happiness seems so far away. I’ve forgotten the taste of total bliss.

But growing up with all these pain has smoldered my heart. The seemingly always happy and carefree boy has grown into a man full of responsibilities, cool and sometimes cold. When you see me EMO it simply means that I’m reminded of stuff. Don’t say things like “Dom don’t be so emo.” It ain’t gonna work. I’m just like that. I will not change for anyone or do things for anyone unless I feel like doing so. The only person who did it correctly is someone I just befriended this year. She actually cheered me up with her lame jokes. You know who you are ;) Thanks!

I know what I can do now. I have the ability to achieve my dreams. Everyday I try to achieve perfection despite my efforts always being thwarted by work and other commitments. And no, I don’t come to school late on purpose. But I will fight, I will fight on. Because I know someday… Someday I will find that something that makes me truly happy. Someday, I will achieve all my dreams and have my purpose served.

And no I don’t hate anyone nor is my anger or vengeance directed to anyone. That’s the reason why I’m happy sometimes. Duh? I’m just have my own issues to settle.

I know that God has not put me here to kick my butt. He put me here in this bad situation for a reason. He wants me to learn the hard way. He knows me too well. I’ve would have gotten serious superior complexity if I was not here. I know I can be the best and can be better. If I was in a good situation in the first place, I would become too proud and undermine myself in the end. Learning how to be humble is not too bad an experience too. I’ve made lots of new friends and learnt lots of new things.

Perhaps one day, I will find all the things I want. I know I will… I will succeed. Because I will not give up ;)

Pain a set of footsteps
It brings you right to the door of happiness